Thoughts from a tired mind....

Am really tired now...but kinda have to stay awake to find out what's happening tomorrow....haiz...it's so hard to get things planned and organised, and sometimes i'd rather not have to celebrate it...especially when we have to do the organising and planning...it's not the organising and planning that gets to me...it's the last minute-ness of it and the fact that i don't know what's going on at all.....

oh well...another thing about Little Miss Control Freak over here....realised today that i'm a bit of a perfectionist and a control freak....we have a new trainee at work who comes in 2 days a week...and when i have to sit down with him to explain things to him and basically walk him through how to do the work, i end up getting really frustrated....just little things like not having any attention to details, missing out putting information that has been given to him, even when i practically write out a letter for him to type on the computer, he can still make mistakes and miss things out, then there's also the fact that although he's got a Masters in Commerce and is doing his CPA now, he still doesn't really know a lot of things, not just things pertaining to accounting and tax and stuff but also how to use Microsoft functions like mail merge etc....i guess i just assumed that because he's got a bachelor's in information systems, he would at least know such things, but he doesn't and because he doesn't i really have to sit down and walk things through with him step-by-step...which just makes me feel really tired at the end of it, coz it means having to talk non-stop for most of the day, having to think of different ways to explain things in a clear and simple to understand way, and basically not getting much work done.....it's really tiring if u try telling someone how to do something and watching them do it, and by the time the whole thing is done, it takes almost 2 hours to complete when if u did it by yourself, it could have been done in half an hour...i guess this is what training is about....if i dun take the time to teach them, they'll never know....haiz.....patience patience patience......i guess i really lack patience

it still never fails to amaze me how sinful people are, how sinful i still am....but it's been really great reading the bible and being reminded of God's graciousness and mercy....we really do have a lot to thank God for....how even though we are such sinful sinful people who keep rejecting God and trying to be god, God in His great mercy has still sought to reconcile us to Him. During bible study today, we read in Galatians 3 (we're doing an Overview of the Old Testament series at the moment) about the blessings that all nations are to receive through Abraham....often times, we tend to think of "blessing" in terms of material things and "me" things...for example, we think "I'm blessed because God has answered this prayer of mine" or "I'm blessed because everything's fallen into place i.e. I got a job immediately after graduating"....i'm not denying that these little "blessings" aren't from God or that they aren't good things which we should thank God for....but the thing that struck me from Galatians today that the blessings which God promised through Abraham are that of being justified or counted righteous by God and also the receiving of the Holy Spirit....now, do we really ever think of being blessed in that way?

thought i should blog about this too, before i forget.....thought it was really sweet how my bible study group got me a cake today....it was kinda a surprise coz i went out to the bathroom after the study ended and when i entered, there was my cake and the group singing a birthday song =) also....i kinda left my water bottle in uni due to my absent-mindedness and probably some miscomunication but merrill was sweet enough to go back to uni and rescue my water bottle for me although i said he didnt have to... it was only when he returned from uni with my water bottle that i even knew he had gone back to uni in search of it =) so thank you everybody!