just came back from the MASIN commissioning for Yuk Yee, David, Joshua, Kay Hoe and Michael. MASIN events are always a great time to catch up with people that have some kinda links to FOCUS but whom we dun always see all the time. just like how weddings are a great time to catch up and meet people that you dun see very often. not that we attend many weddings, could be because we dun know too many people of marriagable age or time of life. steve n shirley are probably the only people i know that attend the most weddings. they seem to have at least 1 wedding to attend every weekend. anyway it's sad to see everyone leave. i guess that's a fact of life especially being in FOCUS. the only permanance (this spelling looks wrong) is seeing people go home. it's funny coz i was chatting to Clare Sankaran abt her going home and she said at least back home in Singapore, they'll have a little more permanance. i guess it's different from different perspectives. it's funny...i've recently started to think more abt how the next time i'll (hopefully and) probably see anyone who's leaving is not in Singapore or Malaysia but in heaven.

i think i'll miss the Foo family. they've been in ESF for 3 years, i've seen Graeme and Toby born and both of them plus Nicholas grow up. I'll really miss them. Karen's been telling me how Nicholas will probably miss me coz he's quite fond of me, and he was really excited going to our wedding coz he knew Merrill and I, and how it's probably the only wedding so far that he's understood what's going on coz now whenever he hears the hymns that were sung at our wedding, he thinks of it as "Janet's song". so sweet....i'll really miss the little fella. oh yah, another sweet thing that he did was when i taught sunday school once during the holidays coz the regular teachers were away, he actually made me a thank you card after that to thank me! that's probably one of the sweetest and thoughtful gesture that someone's ever done (ok, maybe there's more but in my forgetfulness and short-term memory, it's abt one of the few i remember right now) but i think if i see him again in perhaps a year or so, he'll probably have forgotten me.
sighz.....could time ever stop so that nothing will ever change?